at home away from 'home'

3-months holiday ain't easy to pass by if you've no distinct task to complete
with friends mostly back to their respective hometowns

there may be entertainment around but it may not fulfill satisfaction in life
emptiness lingers around once in a while

a sudden halt to the hectic life just gives much time to spare day by day
unless one can find some meaningful activities to do

this is a life of a student
but i guess it would be the same to working life

after all,
studies or work are what mask one away from the sweet time one can have all to oneself
at the end of the day,
having been bz with all the appointed job/assignments
one just desires to take a good rest
before the same old cycle repeats itself again the next morning
waking up early -> go to school or work -> back home to rest

this kinda life leaves not much time for one to really think what we're actually living for
maybe that's why life is meant to live with accompanied by a purpose

but this is just the typical life that's practically about the same for everyone
when you've studied/worked hard enough for a certain amount of time
you seek rest & that's when holidays come in
after getting refreshed,
you get back to carrying out the responsibility of playing the role of student/worker

ryte now,
it's the point in between where i've yet to complete studies
with no proper certificate to enter the workforce
(though i'm not ready to work anyway, coz that would be ongoing for the rest of life)

anyhow,
it's life

people start off with play,
then begin to get education
being a student at 1 stage is quite 'carefree' really
(because it's taking up to almost 2 decades)
have nothing much to worry except for homework
most dont need to even think of sustaining a livelihood as yet

well then,
what all hope for now is to graduate successfully
work & then probably get married, start a family
continue to work......

basically, as student's life is over,
i feel one can sense the freedom to choose whatever they want to do
what kinda work they're gonna involved in
provided with the conditions & situations

because there's no more restrain of studying
no longer getting bound by homework
and that's when one fully takes charge of life
nobody's gonna really control you what to do afterwards
you can change your jobs if you dont like one over the other
and you can do almost whatever you want with the money you earn

anyhow
work mostly just helps one to support living expenses
and no money means you can't put food on the table
no food -> starve -> life (just might) end here

perhaps living life with a purpose
means you can be certain of what you're capable of doing
and doing it with passion (and/or talent)
that way, you still cherish life
because you dedicate (probably the whole lifetime)
doing what you can do best & still enjoy doing it daily

:)

screwed biological clock

haven't sleep .. haven't sleep .. haven't sleep ..

thus, shall blog about some random things

a. As yet, I still haven't watched 2012 ..
really wanna watch it in cinema

b. Thinking of going for trip after graduation
(even though have yet to graduate)

[don't feel like starting work immediately,
well, that's if any company wanna hire me la]

p/s: anyway, if anybody wanna tag along,
i guess can start suggesting for places to explore

c. It's raining now.. good time to tuck in to bed
(but will do it later)

d. I want to go for food trips in penang or ipoh or malacca
(next sem, can we make it come true, my fellow monashians?)

e. I want to play badminton, bowling, tabletennis, basketball... etc...

f. I'm missing home a lil'

g. I hope i can pass exam

h. I like listening to soothing songs in the middle of the night,
calm & peaceful..

i. Looking forward to spend holidays with family
(though short but always the best time of the year)

j. I need to stop eating so much

k. I should sleep now ..................................... zZzzzzzzzz

bye bye ;P

i'm free (for just 1 more week)

seems like i've abandoned bloggie for quite a while now
thought i'd pen down something here just to show i'm still alive..haha

to have freedom to laze around & do (almost) whatever i like for now is good
at least i dont have stress to rush for uni work
or (force) myself to wake up early for the morning classes
coz i'm having short holidays..temporarily

on the bright side, i can still enjoy for 1 more week
on the dim side, i've to start internship for 2 months very quickly

i've decided to let myself off my part-time job this time
just realized that it's the last summer holiday i'm gonna have
the 1st one, i spent some time working

the 2nd one, i spent it working too
is that why i'm feeling kinda tired
as if i've not much rest afterall with the 3-months break all the while?

now the 3rd & last one, i'll be working too
(too bad this one is compulsory in order to graduate later & i'm not sure how it would be like)
i hope it's not some boring work where i've to get stuck in the research lab whole day?
but i doubt it would be much interesting anyway

what to do?
no choice but to just do it
sometimes things just dont always go the way you would like it to be

turned 21st for a week now..
life is indeed like a roller coaster,
giving me a variety of feelings & emotions

imagine having to sit for exam on that day itself
luckily it was the last paper for the finals
and i can right away enjoy the 'momentary' freedom which i've seek for throughout the hectic 3 months semester uni life after the paper

not the 1st time spending it in an exam hall actually
it's my 2nd time having to sit for exam on the day the age figure changes
the last one was during a-levels

definitely not enjoyable
anyhow, glad it's over now

nervous because it's an exam which i know i've to do well in exam in order to pass
excited because i'm officially legal (by age)
sad because i'm getting older?

but i guess it's the undeniable fact
that by the end of every year..
everyone eventually turns a year older anyway

hmm, short trip to langkawi was quite fun
though i now regret i didn't buy more chocs
but i realize i've been constantly trying to hunt & search for food to bite on in this holiday
so, perhaps it was a good thing i didn't buy too much of it

i guess i've really should get out & do some exercise
(anybody still around here in sunway & interested?)
i guess most have gone back home
by the time we meet up for the commencement of the final sem
we'll be bz again
but if anybody has any plans..you're most welcomed to ask me out for activities
if we can cope up with each other's daily schedule..

or maybe spend more time outdoors (e.g. going to work)
to keep me away from distracting myself with food
self-control much needed

it does get a little boring to have no task that i should complete
but i do appreciate the time when i can totally keep myself relaxed
not to think, not to worry (except for my internship)

to just wake up anytime i like..
do whatever i feel like doing
tend to be lazy..
but who cares?
be freee ~~~~~~~ (for a while)

anyway, gambateh to all currently studying
happy holidays to all who finished their exams for now..

will update more after i get pics from trip
or when i start internship

tata ^^

1 more paper before 1 more sem but....

it has been long, it has been tough .................... and it's still not over yet *sigh*

i dare not aim high, just hoping much i'll survive through it
getting it done with is simply good enough
and wish the next one would be slightly better after the worst being experienced

definitely not an enjoyable one,
but that's what been laid out in front
no choice but to keep going,

i guess a reminder to be taken note of would be:

if you ever get knocked down,
remember that it's not about time to give in yet
instead, take a short time-out
then get up & fight again

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hmm, hush.....
i'm feeling life's missing something ryte now
nothing special to 'spice-up' life a little
it's been revolving around studies only mostly
and i'm tired of it

especially as i feel quality of life deteriorates in some way
considering how hectic this uni life would be

deprivation of sleep
lack of nutritious food
irregular meal times
sedentary lifestyle without much physical activity

all these i've learnt
that the exact opposite of what have been mentioned above;
would be essential to lead to a better health condition
but ironically,
i've achieved all of those improper lifestyle habits

seriously,
i need a break
which should come true as planned if everything goes well
short but anticipating it to be a good vacation getaway
to rid of all the exhaustion
before anything else begins again

being away from home for more than 2 years already
and kinda missing home a bit
even though home-sick symptom rarely appears in me

but home..
is at least the place i can leave all else behind (temporarily)
and fully enjoy the comforts i get as much as i can

was a fresh start exploring a different environment 2 years back then
but now it's really a bit boring
as if staying in a 'nut-shell' for too long

even when there are actually many places that can plan to go for a visit
variety of nice food choices to indulge in
wide range of interesting activities to do

time's running out that can be spent with uni mates
and there was never enough opportunity to have great fun together

people say,
life is just like a sheet of canvas
you are the painter
it's up to you how you want to colour & create this masterpiece artwork
through your journey in life

in another context,
life may be a book with blank pages
where you are the rightful author
holding the pen & ink down the chapters of your own life in it

ultimately,
the meaning of my life?
i can't define it at the moment
because,
there's so much more to life
and so far, i still have yet to say i've been there, done that..

for now,
i just want to live a happy life
one that would make me smile at the beginning of a brand new day
and sufficient for me to sustain throughout another day
is that too much to demand for?