at home away from 'home'

3-months holiday ain't easy to pass by if you've no distinct task to complete
with friends mostly back to their respective hometowns

there may be entertainment around but it may not fulfill satisfaction in life
emptiness lingers around once in a while

a sudden halt to the hectic life just gives much time to spare day by day
unless one can find some meaningful activities to do

this is a life of a student
but i guess it would be the same to working life

after all,
studies or work are what mask one away from the sweet time one can have all to oneself
at the end of the day,
having been bz with all the appointed job/assignments
one just desires to take a good rest
before the same old cycle repeats itself again the next morning
waking up early -> go to school or work -> back home to rest

this kinda life leaves not much time for one to really think what we're actually living for
maybe that's why life is meant to live with accompanied by a purpose

but this is just the typical life that's practically about the same for everyone
when you've studied/worked hard enough for a certain amount of time
you seek rest & that's when holidays come in
after getting refreshed,
you get back to carrying out the responsibility of playing the role of student/worker

ryte now,
it's the point in between where i've yet to complete studies
with no proper certificate to enter the workforce
(though i'm not ready to work anyway, coz that would be ongoing for the rest of life)

anyhow,
it's life

people start off with play,
then begin to get education
being a student at 1 stage is quite 'carefree' really
(because it's taking up to almost 2 decades)
have nothing much to worry except for homework
most dont need to even think of sustaining a livelihood as yet

well then,
what all hope for now is to graduate successfully
work & then probably get married, start a family
continue to work......

basically, as student's life is over,
i feel one can sense the freedom to choose whatever they want to do
what kinda work they're gonna involved in
provided with the conditions & situations

because there's no more restrain of studying
no longer getting bound by homework
and that's when one fully takes charge of life
nobody's gonna really control you what to do afterwards
you can change your jobs if you dont like one over the other
and you can do almost whatever you want with the money you earn

anyhow
work mostly just helps one to support living expenses
and no money means you can't put food on the table
no food -> starve -> life (just might) end here

perhaps living life with a purpose
means you can be certain of what you're capable of doing
and doing it with passion (and/or talent)
that way, you still cherish life
because you dedicate (probably the whole lifetime)
doing what you can do best & still enjoy doing it daily

:)

...

这一刻，你可能拥有一切；
下一瞬间，可能已经失去全部。。
变得一无所有，完了！
那时侯，应该怎么办？

during the 1st moment, you might have all confidence;
soon, you might regret over the decision you've made..

in the beginning, you might hold high hopes;
the next second, you feel your dreams shattered into pieces..

initially, you think you have everything under control;
the following moment, all goes into a mess..

while at certain times, you may be rich;
within a blink of an eye, you might lose all fortune..

at 1 point, you think you grabbed the opportunity;
then, you see it slowly slipping away..

now, you may enjoy all that there is;
shortly, you may find accepting it is a struggle itself..

for a while, you could have fallen deeply in love;
who knows in the midst of it, you may get seriously hurt..

before this, you may stay in a comfort zone;
after that, you could be required to step out of it..

at the time being, you could embrace freedom;
later, it could be taken away from you..

你说：我是不是该持有‘小强’精神？
命很硬，且不容易打死。。
坚持到底
但请问：勇气会从哪儿出现，往哪里找？
我想，我真的不清楚，不知道。。

is life predictable or unpredictable?

predictable in a sense that,
you're aware that things may not go ur way all the time?
no longer the same? totally different?
turned upside-down? exactly opposite of what u expected?

unpredictable in terms of not knowing whether all these will happen?
i guess it's hard to tell..

“人生有几个十年，最紧要活得痛快！”
无奈的是~ 我现在一点都不觉得痛快。。谁能救我？
生命还有什么意思？
没有动力，没有冲劲。。
意义在哪里？

dealing with doubts and dilemma ..
will get you feeling it's killing you silently day by day ..

some things you thought it's wise and seems really fine ..
but maybe u guess u should have changed ur mind after all ..

i wanna runaway & escape from it..
truthfully, i'm on the verge of break down & giving up..



but..

shall i face the fight,
just like a brave knight,
with all of my might,
that victory may come into sight



the question then is: will I still be alright?
even before the end of the night..
i'm wishing upon the stars and the bright moonlight

life is fragile, handle with care
appreciate what you have

treasure your relationship with family,
cherish your friendship,
enjoy all the fun you can,
eat all the food you want..

live life to the fullest..
play to the max !

at the end of the day, i hope i can say:
i have fought a good battle,
kept the faith,
never stop running till i reach to touch the finish line,
and lastly get some well-deserved rest.