still alive..

a short & random post here cause i realize i've abandoned bloggie quite a while again & just to show i'm still alive..

anyway,
finally tried archery today
i think robin hood must have been pretty good & well-trained
considering his renowned fame for archery
(though i wonder if there's really such a person or he existed only in the disney cartoon of robin hood legends)

my arms got tired & the muscles are sore..
haven't exercise much except walking to & fro before and after work
as well as up & down the staircase all the time

holding the bow especially would put a strain after you've been holding it for some time
stretching the arrow back needs some skill (and long hands) too to give you a 'yeng' pose while you're about to shoot the arrow
hmm, aiming can be better if only the hands don't get tired so quickly

perhaps will try again next time if there's chance to play with friends
at least then the fatigue after work would have gone away too

i do enjoy sports & adventurous activities
and if i have lotsa $$
i think i would invest in some sports games every now & then or go hit the gym

on another note,
i think it's time i start to write out a 'what-i-want-to-do-in-my-life' list
already have some ideas & thoughts about it from time to time
just not sure how many it would come up to eventually
& which ones will be achieved ultimately

but i wanna try to plan them out
and see if i could get them done within the days of my life..
preferably with some like-minded souls who are interested in carrying out the similar things
hopefully i can find some 'partner-in-crime' or fellow mates and friends to do it with me too someday..

that's all for now..
c y'all next time
till then,
have a good day :)

bad day

life is hard
sometimes it's really tough to deal with it

had a bad, long, hard day
luckily got home before the rain but the weather reflected my mood
the feeling of guilt can kill
knowing having screwed up, big time..

now, i shall learn to be a learner
never let panic get in your way
whatever it is,
never underestimate a careless mistake
as simple or silly as it is
you would never know how much it will cost you or what's the 'price' to pay
just stop & think twice
it's better than regretting over something which can't be saved

hopeless and expecting the worst
but still gotta face the reality
i lost courage but i must not give up
just wish things will get better and there's opportunity for redemption

update from internship

didn't realize that working (even as just an intern) can be so tiring actually
well, long hours straight in the office for 2 days with no specifically assigned task can be boring
except for reading journal on the 1st and 'find-your-own-thing-to-do/read-up' on the 2nd
this is enough to get one mentally tired

anyway, glad it wasn't exactly the same for 3rd day
but, i guess one would surely get physically tired instead when:
on the previous day,
- just slept only for 3 or 4 hours
- fried donuts whole day (about 200 of them)
- walked up & down 108 steps of the staircase and walked some more
what more, all on a rainy day & being nervous that exam results would be released

supposed to have prepared the dough for making roti canai for the next day
but the fella's not around to teach us
anyway, the day wasn't that bad afterall
learnt how noodles are made

just a few days & mind's filled with:
wheat, flour, bran, wholemeal, starch, gluten, etc...
tired..

but at least we are involved, could see & get hands on with the production of food products right from the basic raw ingredients
which i think is rather interesting because it's food rather than non-edible items
it's also exciting to be able to taste & try out the end product from the efforts being put in

for now,
there are still a few different things that hopefully the company staff could teach us
so then it wouldn't be that boring later

imagine keep looking at the clock ticking
having the thought of counting how much time left before off-work time
and counting the number of public holidays in the month
(*loving the idea that starting from next week,
there would be public holidays on friday for 4 weeks consecutively...wohohohohoho)
just so that we don't need to turn in for work & can rest, just do our own things

experiencing this kinda working life actually makes me appreciate weekends
and i now know why people rejoice & thank-god-when-it's-friday
6pm has become the time that i look forward to the most on weekdays
because it's time to go home from work..hehe

really hope there won't be many boring days throughout this internship period
and this would be a good opportunity to benefit from a practical learning that would be useful in the future