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这一刻，你可能拥有一切；
下一瞬间，可能已经失去全部。。
变得一无所有，完了！
那时侯，应该怎么办？

during the 1st moment, you might have all confidence;
soon, you might regret over the decision you've made..

in the beginning, you might hold high hopes;
the next second, you feel your dreams shattered into pieces..

initially, you think you have everything under control;
the following moment, all goes into a mess..

while at certain times, you may be rich;
within a blink of an eye, you might lose all fortune..

at 1 point, you think you grabbed the opportunity;
then, you see it slowly slipping away..

now, you may enjoy all that there is;
shortly, you may find accepting it is a struggle itself..

for a while, you could have fallen deeply in love;
who knows in the midst of it, you may get seriously hurt..

before this, you may stay in a comfort zone;
after that, you could be required to step out of it..

at the time being, you could embrace freedom;
later, it could be taken away from you..

你说：我是不是该持有‘小强’精神？
命很硬，且不容易打死。。
坚持到底
但请问：勇气会从哪儿出现，往哪里找？
我想，我真的不清楚，不知道。。

is life predictable or unpredictable?

predictable in a sense that,
you're aware that things may not go ur way all the time?
no longer the same? totally different?
turned upside-down? exactly opposite of what u expected?

unpredictable in terms of not knowing whether all these will happen?
i guess it's hard to tell..

“人生有几个十年，最紧要活得痛快！”
无奈的是~ 我现在一点都不觉得痛快。。谁能救我？
生命还有什么意思？
没有动力，没有冲劲。。
意义在哪里？

dealing with doubts and dilemma ..
will get you feeling it's killing you silently day by day ..

some things you thought it's wise and seems really fine ..
but maybe u guess u should have changed ur mind after all ..

i wanna runaway & escape from it..
truthfully, i'm on the verge of break down & giving up..



but..

shall i face the fight,
just like a brave knight,
with all of my might,
that victory may come into sight



the question then is: will I still be alright?
even before the end of the night..
i'm wishing upon the stars and the bright moonlight

life is fragile, handle with care
appreciate what you have

treasure your relationship with family,
cherish your friendship,
enjoy all the fun you can,
eat all the food you want..

live life to the fullest..
play to the max !

at the end of the day, i hope i can say:
i have fought a good battle,
kept the faith,
never stop running till i reach to touch the finish line,
and lastly get some well-deserved rest.

transition

i still remember clearly the day i set foot in this foreign environment, away from home..
yes, no doubt, it's already been almost 2 years now

from the day i felt like a total stranger to the place;
to the day i start to take the same route walking to uni daily

from the day i don't need to think what to have for meals;
to the day i learn to get & fix some food for myself

from the day i don't know exactly where the (a,b,c) s are on the keyboard;
to the day i finally get familiarized with the position of the alphabets
[effect after doing lots of typed assignments]

from the day i don't usually incline towards caffeine consumption;
to the day i try to rely on coffee to stay up awake and alert while burning midnight oil

from the day i depend on someone else to wake me up;
to the times i get up early with alarm just to finish work or prepare for the day

from the day i'm not used to directions around the place;
to the day i slowly learn the whereabouts of the area

from the day i seek excitement in exploring the mall;
to the times when i don't even have any idea what to do inside

from the day i ask my parents for allowance for spending;
to the day i find my first part-time job to earn some money

from the day i have convenient transportation to go to most places;
to the day i get used to become a pedestrian on the road

from the day i live a more care-free life;
to the moments i have to confront challenges ahead of me all alone

from the day i don't have to worry much;
to the times when i know very well how stress feels like

from the day i can stay in the comfort zones of home;
to the day i need to be independent and be responsible to take care of myself

all these have been experiences over these '2-months-to-2-years' time
ryte now, perhaps i should begin searching for the real truth, meaning & purpose of life
uni studies is gonna finish very soon, thoughts often underestimate how quick time can pass by

i'm tired..
i'm exhausted;
with what i'm doing

this sem felt miserably long compared to last sem
probably i enjoyed better last time
happy times get over way faster
even before you realize that it's the end of it

i can't wait for this sem to end
yet next sem will be worse i guess
surely won't be looking forward for the commencement of another new coming sem
so basically i'm 'stuck'
with only 3 weeks' holiday in between
which is going to say 'bye-bye' real immediately

i don't know what to expect in the future
neither have i the answer to how to best equip myself for it
getting ready for it means a whole new transition would take place
fear is lurking again..

!@#$%^&*

life is like a roller coaster ride, with its ups & downs

right now in this season

it is pretty much on the down-side at the moment

nothing much to say, nothing better to ask

nobody is perfect

but i only wish i'm smarter & have less weaknesses

is that too much to hope for?

disappointments..frustrations..anger..ignorance?

bring it on!

*don't worry..i'll be fine..just give me some time

number of the week

featuring the lucky number of the week ... 3

started from wednesday
~ 30-page practical report

thursday
~ 30 % (3000 words) assignment

friday
~ 3000 words field trip report

all in 3 days consecutively..

the worst part is : they're all major assessments
at the end of 1 day, feel like resting
yet, have to keep on going, going & going..
rushing with time, day after day..
no time for taking a break

trying to sleep & all that floated in mind were things related to assignment about to be passed up..
it's like an alarm that keeps alerting me to drag myself up & get on doing work until i finish them

now that these works had been completed..
dont think it's over yet..
there's still more to come..

should i welcome them with anticipation?