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what am i doing?

honestly, i don't noe..
i'm not quite sure too..

with no motivation, no inspiration, no determination
it gets me nowhere practically..

sometimes, i feel simple routine work is better than a study life, at least, i won't have to face challenges that come by every now and then, even though the satisfaction that could be achieved at the end of the day would go way beyond accomplishing something easier..

perhaps, i'm running away from reality or laziness is just taking a hold of me..
either way, that's bad of course i realize..

at times, i can't stop thinking what i really want and the reason behind why i'm doing it?
hence, if i can't find proper excuses, i find no point in doing something not worth doing unless i understand the real purpose of doing so..

anyway, i'm just crapping here..*ignore me
i feel like i'm a little ant trying to survive through huge obstacles in front..
i need to get back on track..
just hope i can get over the hurdles, one by one, no fuss, take it steady, one at a time..
i'll be fine..*fingers crossed..

well, still wish u guys have a nice day ahead =)