undeniable

holidays just started..
i guess one's suppose to feel relief and get to relax after all, no?

yet,
how can i actually still have difficulty falling asleep?

laid down in bed as i felt tired..
but mind's refusing to take a rest

as the nite curtain falls,
especially when it's about time to sleep,
the mind's filled with thoughts lately,
couldn't simply doze off as usual,
after getting physically & mentally exhausted..

maybe that's what people say as 叠高枕头想一想

i guess as compared to the normally busy uni life,
i have more free time & opportunity in exchange,
which eventually allows me to quiet down, silently wonder..
what i should do?

woke up with a bad dream..
and there's a question i realize nobody can answer for u unless u experience it yourself..
people may tell u you will go to heaven after u die;
or one may say you would end up in hell,
otherwise, you might be a soul wandering around bcoz you didn't rest in peace..
and where else could one think of?

so how would you really know if these answers are definitely true?
has that person who told you that been dead before?
and nobody who's deceased can get resurrected and tell you exactly where 'it' went, ryte?
all i know is the fact that all physical parts will return as dust of the ground after years and years gone from the earth..

this, i guess u will surely know after u go thru it yourself..
sorrowful?
well, that's the truth..
life is unexpected and death is inevitable..
reality one has to face,
coming & leaving this world..
just a matter of time..