mini update

1. i'm really blur in recombinant DNA, i still don't get the lecturer (frustrated~)

2. just joined plurk recently

3. it's fun to exploit the resources available in uni

4. price hike in F & B of cinema -- profit goes up..but salary still maintain? >.<

5. have to wake up early everyday from now onwards, trying to adapt to this kind of lifestyle..

behind the veil

taking a break from work today and strolling around the mall, i realize..

'ninjas' do mostly appear at night, or maybe morning (just that i didn't see or something)

but what i mean here is not in the literal sense as those ninjas who practise martial arts bcoz basically i reckon in this modern, realistic society, one couldn't find ninjas anymore (unless if you watch anime or manga)

but well do they actually still exist? that, i don't have a clue..
at the same time, i partially doubt it coz i would be thinking why would there be a need for ninjas anyway..

i don't mean to be criticize, be sarcastic, discriminate or judge others but from the outward appearance, they just remind me of ninjas, and i learnt this 'term' to describe from my brother..

essentially, those are the arabian or middle eastern ladies who wears full clothing covering themselves except only revealing their eyes..

they are easy to spot really, because they wear only black (as far as i notice) and they don't interact much with other people during any transaction or trade made..
their husbands (or boyfriend?) do their talking..they all look the same to me..

they carry distinctive features really,
e.g.
1. they have a thick accent
(it's often hard to try and get what they really want)
2. they have more expectations and generally have higher demands
(thus, take longer time to deal with)
3. they are rich $$$
**4. they always ask for salty popcorn (which is not available here~)

i'm just curious over how their husbands recognize them..

i understand it's the culture but if they're brought up since young to cover from top to bottom (in order to 'tutup aurat' or sth)..then how would the arabian guys get to know them without even recognizing at their faces first, but only by staring into their eyes?

if it's this manner, does that mean they would only see their true faces when after they marry them home? or do they still live with arranged marriage nowadays? that they're destined to married 'who' and 'who' regardless of their looks or personality and it doesn't matter/bother about this at all?

say, imagine given a scenario or situation where there's a fire in the mall, and there's a need to escape in the midst of chaos, little visibility and the crowd around are lost with only these arabians..

i know the wives could straight away see and know which is the husband but...
can u guess if the husbands would end up safely at home with the same, right wife instead of the wrong one IF the wives are not to make a single noise or sound?

then, i suppose the husbands must be pretty good and know this particular wife's eyes really well right..or do they have special instincts to know that she's the one..

i wonder deep down how these arabian ladies feel, just because they're born into that custom/tradition..

if they're to cover their faces all of their life when they're outdoors and only to unveil their 'mask' at home and only to their spouse or family?
would they think it's a conservative idea in this modern world?
would they mind about this issue for the whole of their lifetime?
would they wanna change this culture if given a chance?
it's a mystery beyond the veil..

1st day of uni

and it marks the beginning of the final year for the 3-year course

yay, 1st lecture from as early as at 8am, i attended it, without being late~
after my only 3 hour 'nap' from the night (or morning) before..
and didn't doze off during the next few lectures as well

but now i'm feeling sleepy,
well, looking on the bright side,
think it can at least help improve my currently still nocturnal lifestyle..

hmm, just hoping i can make it throughout the rest of the whole sem
probably this positive energy just arise from being just the 1st day and the feeling of starting over afresh..
after our 3-weeks long break
will see if i can really stay disciplined to go to lessons daily by 8am..
*fingers crossed even though this ambitious new sem resolution might not be met anyway

no unfamiliar faces,
same lecturers we see from the previous semesters.

for human nutrition,

1st thing done by lecturer was requesting a couple of students to read out the unit outline/synopsis & objective..
quite interesting, reminds me of those primary/secondary sch days when the teacher asked the class to turn the textbook to page '??' and ask student 'x' to read one part and another student 'y' to continue on to another part...lol

apparently, the lecturer thinks we've covered some of the basic, important things for human nutrition, but i only recalled biochem studying loads of DNA and protein instead of how nutrients are processed in the body..

high expectations required from this lecturer and i doubt i can meet them *sigh..

then sneaked in to env health class,

the lecturer's got a sense of humor and her class won't be boring really, i guess
but i did not enrol to this unit & still pondering whether to change my elective from retail management principles to this one..or should i at least wait until i attend the lecture 1st..

in a sort of dilemma now as each has its pros and cons of outcome that i need to get a compromise and balance in between so i can make a decision of which to choose in terms of what will be useful and that won't drag down my grades at the same time..
any suggestion from anyone would be helpful.. >.<

right after that,
went to the instrumental analysis class
(one which i thought i escaped from it but end up dropping back towards it..sigh)

it's a hard unit for me,
the labs and the assignments..

and there was the usual, same, old grandpa-like lecturer (who prefers to mainly face the computer instead of making eye contact with students) already starting to teach some chemical analysis stuff..bit boring and there's lots to know about..

lastly, recombinant DNA tech..
(one which i would rather not take if it weren't changed to as a core unit)

and it was our brilliant prof,
teaching a big class this time,
which means less focus to individual or small groups
(phew, because encounter or discussions with him would make one feel awkward in a difficult situation not being able to get to what he wants)

even after the last sem interacting with him, but still i realize i couldn't capture what he really expects..

to understand him, it's unless you try to go inside his head and explore what's on his mind (which is kinda impossible)

most of the time, he seems like he's in his own world, fascinated by the nature and 'behaviour' of the microbes/enzymes/cells, concerning whether they're happy, healthy or forced to produce the desired components..
and how to cleverly manipulate their DNA in order to achieve purpose of some sort...

but at times, he's friendly to students too..
well, i guess we'll be hearing more of his little staggering of speech from some repetitive single words at some point in the midst of lecture and also his signature laugh from time to time..even if you don't get it..

after all, first day was not too bad..
maybe because stress is only yet to be felt soon afterwards..for sure

anyway, that's about it for 1st day, bye bye day 1..

welcome back to uni life, could sense it's gonna be way tougher, with more great challenges ahead..

well, gambateh everyone..

random

results are out..
good news & bad news

i'm feeling anxious, afraid & worried for several different matters..

on a random note:
i really wanna go somewhere & enjoy life
and i think i'm testing my limits for now..

my resolution for new sem:
hope i wont be late attending classes, actually it feels more like going for work sharp at 8am everyday

anyway, i wanna do well but i guess i cant find the motivation to do it

probably this entry will leave readers some "???" as it might seem a little vague..
oh well, just posting this out of some random thoughts..

enjoy the last weekend before the new sem commences aye peeps..

is freedom somewhat = boredom?

today marks the day i've step foot in west m'sia for exactly 2 years..
(well, minus a couple of months i spent back in my hometown, since on average i'd only go home & stay for a month or so each year)

am currently having holidays & i'm still at the same place as usual..

how'd it been?
now,

imagine starting the day off being a 'cereal' killer..
(eating cereals, not committing serial killing crime of course)

then, leading a 'dramatic' life
(watching lots of drama that is)

and a life with 'great' dreams
(yea, dreams you get from finally having sufficient sleep daily and as much nap as i want)

that's how pathetic life can be with the much anticipated holidays after the 'long' ordeal which ended within 3 months time the previous semester..

it's hard to live without a definite purpose
it's rather difficult when you just cant find a clear meaning..
and boredom sneaks in ever so easily

yet, at the same time,
not looking forward at all when time would seem to get pass so quickly when the new study sem resumes..

maybe it's time..
time for what?
well, i don't know..
hmm, still not really sure if i can find the right thing to do
but, at least not so 'aimless' just as now..


i guess..
hope there's really something which i can make full use of before all that hectic schedule comes back again..

still, enjoy your holidays while you still can, monashians..
before you regret it
in another 12 days time,
it's gonna begin to get tough all over again
and quite a big hurdle i assume
to go through whatever challenges laid in front

have a great day ahead

Zzz....*ring... >.<"

morning world..
supposed to be ZzZ-ing at this time, turned in 'early' again last night at 4am..

my dream disrupted by the ringing noise..
received call from my mum,
answered her, thought i could go back to sleep..
yet, later on after a short while, another call from my dad repeating the same thing.. =.='
they both asked whether i'm actually awake, i frankly said "no"...
but they continued with what they wanna say anyway..*sigh

i understand they can usually get up early..
but, cant have mercy on my.....sleep?!
was ryte in the midst of getting the moment of falling deep in sleep..
yea, just when about i thought i could return to my slumber land,
guess what, my bro's alarm started going 'tit-tit-tit.....'

so here i am, end up couldn't go back to zzz..
as much as i wanted to,
i think the afternoon nap would come in handy then..

well, in the next coming sem,
i know from monday - friday,
i would have classes at 8am..
meaning have to wake up early everyday to attend lectures..
even worse than the previous sem,
where only 3 days of 8am lessons,
and i skipped most of them..
but why, that's only beginning in 2 weeks' time..

i'll try work on adjusting the biological clock again..
but til then, i'm still in holidays, no?
planning to enjoy more at least..
the feeling of 'don't care' can take over now..

ok, to those of you up & about at this healthy hour..
have a productive day ahead & remember to smile! =)

undeniable

holidays just started..
i guess one's suppose to feel relief and get to relax after all, no?

yet,
how can i actually still have difficulty falling asleep?

laid down in bed as i felt tired..
but mind's refusing to take a rest

as the nite curtain falls,
especially when it's about time to sleep,
the mind's filled with thoughts lately,
couldn't simply doze off as usual,
after getting physically & mentally exhausted..

maybe that's what people say as 叠高枕头想一想

i guess as compared to the normally busy uni life,
i have more free time & opportunity in exchange,
which eventually allows me to quiet down, silently wonder..
what i should do?

woke up with a bad dream..
and there's a question i realize nobody can answer for u unless u experience it yourself..
people may tell u you will go to heaven after u die;
or one may say you would end up in hell,
otherwise, you might be a soul wandering around bcoz you didn't rest in peace..
and where else could one think of?

so how would you really know if these answers are definitely true?
has that person who told you that been dead before?
and nobody who's deceased can get resurrected and tell you exactly where 'it' went, ryte?
all i know is the fact that all physical parts will return as dust of the ground after years and years gone from the earth..

this, i guess u will surely know after u go thru it yourself..
sorrowful?
well, that's the truth..
life is unexpected and death is inevitable..
reality one has to face,
coming & leaving this world..
just a matter of time..